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From: John
Date: 28 Aug 2004
Time: 13:32:57 -0700
Remote Name: 209.251.10.20
I have just started to remove my CH from my life. I have never had to do some of the things that I have had to do in the last 3 weeks. Granted this girl threw away her future.....but why was it up to me to throw away her past? All she owned was left at my house. I had it all taken by the trashman last week. I never felt so low in all my life as I did walking her stuff down to the curb. I walk around my house crying all the time. I didnt really even love her.....I just couldnt handle watching her throw all she had away. I managed to talk to one of her counselors and he told me that if I couldnt help her up to help her down. I may never figure that one out. I understand what he means but how can I do that? Thats not who I am or ever want to be, I feel so lost.